Sunday, January 3, 2010

Happy New Year!

2010 is finally here. I don't know what is in store for me this new year but I am hoping that it is nothing like the last one.

Last year went by like a blur. It started off with a bang with us buying a house and me starting a new job. But soon after, we found out that my mother's cancer was back and this time with a vengeance. It had metastasized to 4 other organs and her oncologist was not very hopeful of a good outcome. Long story short, she has been undergoing several different and extremely harsh treatment options and there has been moderate improvement in her condition but the toll that it has taken on her general health and state of mind is inexplicable. Each cycle of treatment came with its own set of side effects and issues and took away a part of my parents at the end of it. To their credit, my parents are a very strong and determined couple. They are doing incredibly well given their circumstances. They are hanging in there. In turn, I am hanging in there. I don't know for how much longer though. It also does not help that I live in a whole different continent. So many problems, no viable solution in sight.

Taking a leaf out of my mother's book, I cannot call 2009 a complete washout. I am thankful for a lot of things like :

* My husband. My rock. My strength. The only reason that I am still sane and functional.

* I became very close to several people that I met through my blog and I am so thankful for it. I know that if I ever need to talk, they are all just an email or IM away. And this makes me feel so immensely secure because my natural tenency is to keep things bottled up inside of me. I realized that I cannot be that way anymore. I have to reach out. I need to reach out. But I was apprenhensive to do so. What if I was turned down or ignored? Or worse, what if I was misunderstood? Well, my apprehensions were laid to rest very quickly. I can go on and on about each one of them, but if I had to associate one word or phrase with them, some examples would be :
This list is no way complete. I just want to say thank you all for being there for it means a lot to me.

* My best friends in the real world, especially this one and the one that lives in another continent and is the mother of the most adorable little boy and little girl I have ever met. You keep me sane and strong and focussed at all times and just let me be. I don't know what I would have done with you.

* My aunt who is a physician and everybody else in the family that has been there for us all through our difficult journey.

* All those lovely people like her, who sent me wonderful emails with precious information about breast cancer, who wrote about their personal experiences about battling cancer and who generally made me feel so much more positive. All this after either just chancing upon my blog or hearing about my situation from a friend of a friend. How blessed am I! Thank you all so much.

I just realized that I could go on and add a few more points to the above list which is so terrific under the circumstances! I am hoping that this new year is better than the last and brings with it happiness, good health and cheer. For me and my family and to all you wonderful folks!


Silvara said...

Hoping that 2010 brings u more happiness - things will get better...

We'll still be praying for your mum...

Anonymous said...

Sweetie, very very glad to see you here :)

Wishing you all a very happy new year too! I hope and pray that this year brings with it health, happiness and peace to you and your family forever! Praying for your mom too.

Love ya!

La vida Loca said...

Thank you for your lovely words. I am honored to know you.
Here's hoping 2010 is all that you want it to be. My prayers are always with you.
Big hug

Anonymous said...

I know how you feel and what you go through. Be strong for your mum. Lots of love and hugs


Dee said...

Aww honey.. Thank u for including me in the list.. Its a huge honor and I don think I deserve it :)

The reason I guess we r able to connect is coz we were there, u know with my sister.. Things are fabulous now, but my parents still wake up in the nights screaming, worried if things will get better.. I was too young to be a rock or support to them like ur hubby is to u :).. So, this time I am glad I could help!!

Loads of love & hugs!!

U know where to find me :)

Anonymous said...

I wish you a 2010 full of strength and hope.

My prayers are with you.

Anonymous said...

Oh, yes, your new year will be much happier. Just stay strong and do reach out.

Praying for your mom's speedy and painless recovery.

God bless!


Anonymous said...

Hey, I can imagine what a tumultuous year it must have been . Hope your mom heals fast. Best wishes for a happy, peaceful year ahead!

I love Lucy said...

@Silvara : Thank you so much, babe! Heres wishing you a lot of happiness in this new year as well! Just do it, remember?! :)

@SnS : Thanks so much! Means a lot to you too :)

@Loca : Thank you so much! Its been a pleasure knowing you. Thanks for being there.

@Childwoman : Oh honey, I don't even know what to say to you. No one can understand what I am going through better than you. Thanks for your lovely words. Your mom and you are in prayers as well.

@Dee : You are such a lovely person, Dee. And I really value our friendship. I may not have met you in person but I feel like I have known you forever!

@Cluelessness : Thank you so much! D-day is around the corner...good luck with everything! Lots of love :)

@Alwayshappykya : Thanks a bunch for your warm and lovely words, sweets :) You are in my thoughts. Good luck with everything and my best wishes and tons of love to you and our little AHK :)

@Chronicworrier : Thanks so much for your kind words. Here's wishing you a very happy and fun-filled new year as well!

Chickoo said...

Dear S,
No need to thank me at all, I wish you and your family a very happy new year! We are planing on going to Bangalore in March, please let me know if you want to send anything home.


DotThoughts said...

Praying for a speedy recovery for your mom..Wishing all happy things to you in 2010, dear!

Anonymous said...

I wish your mom a speedy recovery and may peace and happiness be around you and your family this new year..

I love Lucy said...

@Dottie : Thanks so much :)

@justaroundme : Your first time here,welcome! :) And thanks so much for your kind words!

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